Dream cameo again F O pls

So yesterday I had a dream about you again. After so long. Like I’m already over you. I really am. But I guess yesterday night I was thinking again (cue period). So the dream went like this,

I was home with my sis and my friend GP came over! Brought her to my room and we were just chilling when suddenly a familiar face appears outside, so I brought him into my room. Then the funniest thing happened, he actually looked remorseful. He asked me how I was doing then proceed to apologise for.. That’s when I cut him off cuz GP was around and I brought them both outside and we packed food and stuff. 

Next thing I know it’s just me and I’m walking towards where he lives, tryna find my way. When I was near his building I saw him walking and he approached me. I said, “anyway what were you gonna say? My friend was there so I thought best not to say anything” to which he ” yes that’s right” and I think he went on to apologise and stuff but weirdly I can’t remember this part of the dream. 

Next thing I know we’re at SP spectrum where his friends were and he was taking me along and intro ing me to people?! And one of his friends was like “wow what’s the special occasion guys? Looks like he’s taking you around intro ing you to many people!” To which I could only smile, as in real life he never did that. 

Next part of the dream I was back home eating my lunch and somehow waiting for him to appear cause I think I knew he was around next the neighbourhood. So I ate my lunch really really slowly. And ya he did show up and smiled and me and proceed to throw the stuff into the trash. All of a sudden my parents show up outside and I didn’t panick tho my sis and I just asked him to sit with us and GP was back again and we just sat on the couch. My dad was like staring at him but not in a scary way and then smiled. The end
I really wish I could remember him apologising. Sigh. I went for a dream interpretation course and I learned that some your dreams are the reality you wish you had. Like they are your subconscious trying to correct something in your life by acting it out. So yea. You finally apologised and introduced me to people. I guess that’s what I get from the dream cause you never did that and I wanted you to, so badly. I hope this is the last dream about you cuz nigguh I am d o n e. Fucking done with this. 
Nim out

Whats up Internat

Ok first of all apologies for not posting anything whatsoever.

I just thought about this for the second time. But this time I could make this into reality given that I’m with the right people of course. 

So next year I’m going for my 1 month exchange so technically I’d be an international student next year. I’m aware that we’d be in groups of 5/6 per suite I guess. I thought it would be great if we had people make their own simple cheap dishes and film the process. Eg film us buying our ingredients, cooking and also friends tasting it. 4 weeks and each person could have 1 ep. It would be great! Not looking for it to blow up or anything but we’d just like to show our Jr’s in SIT what they can do during their break. 

I guess I’ve always been making the same types of food. I’d love to read different cook books to get inspired to make simple healthy dishes so that the internats stay healthy while overseas! 

Let’s see if this happens or not.

Whats up Internat

Ok first of all apologies for not posting anything whatsoever.

I just thought about this for the second time. But this time I could make this into reality given that I’m with the right people of course. 

So next year I’m going for my 1 month exchange so technically I’d be an international student next year. I’m aware that we’d be in groups of 5/6 per suite I guess. I thought it would be great if we had people make their own simple cheap dishes and film the process. Eg film us buying our ingredients, cooking and also friends tasting it. 4 weeks and each person could have 1 ep. It would be great! Not looking for it to blow up or anything but we’d just like to show our Jr’s in SIT what they can do during their break. 

I guess I’ve always been making the same types of food. I’d love to read different cook books to get inspired to make simple healthy dishes so that the internats stay healthy while overseas! 

Let’s see if this happens or not.

Dream

So today I had a dream, a happy one at that. You were in it. It felt so realistic I genuinely woke up with a smile plastered to my face and had me desperately trying to fall back asleep just to experience it again.

Sometimes I forget the whole purpose of this blog, invisible dreamer. So after what feels like forever I’m going to add an entry.

So it started out at my house. We were having a gathering of some sort. Food was ready and I had just stepped out of the shower in my hideous XXL navy blue tshirt and a pair of shorts that were merely peeking through. Hair soaking wet and stuck down the sides of my face just dripping. Gross la. Anyway, I realised that there were guest sitting in the living room. My friend had showed up and she brought along a guest. I couldn’t see who it was as there was a wall blocking his full face. Managed get a sideways look by peaking and low and behold it was him. HIM. In my house again. I panicked. I can’t look like this. So I started to dry my hair with the towel. Couldn’t exactly have a change of clothes. After a while I just decided to walk through the hall to my room and I made no contact with anyone at all. I just looked forward and walked. I reached my room and start trying to look more presentable when he walked in. We had an awkward exchange of glances. We said hi and then I proceed to sit on the yoga mat which was spread on the floor(what even) and he sat on the bed. He just got back from a long trip overseas. I started talking about his journeys and wanted to know all about it and I was just basically gushing over all the pictures he had. One picture striked up and it was of his sitting on top of a cliff. That was a really great shot. He mentioned he took that in Italy( weird that that is true). We talked and laughed and it all felt too familiar. I longed for this again for the longest time. After some time he had to leave  and I wanted to give him a hug good bye but everyone was there and I didn’t want to get murdered by my dad so I controlled myself. Sending him off to the lift and I said, hey let’s have a proper catch up over lunch or something to which he replied, yes that would be nice.

And that’s it.
Btw I feel fucking crazy when I was writing this post. Am I crazy? I think I am. Damn.

What’s sad

What’s sad is that I still think about you. If not today, tomorrow.

What’s sad is that the thing I honestly miss the most is the friendship. Nothing more. Just friendship. We made a pretty good team you can’t deny that. All I want is for you to ask me how I’m doing. Is that too much to ask? Just a simple, hey how are you? what have you been up to? That’s all. Wish things could be the same again.

What’s sad is that you probably forgot about me.

What’s sad is that we stopped talking more than a year ago and I still feel the same way.

What’s sad is that we stopped talking more than a year ago and I sometimes still cry myself to sleep.

You’ve been there through all my bad times.

What’s sad is that you’re not here for me to share all the good times with.You’re not fucking here for me to share it with.

I still think about you. If not tomorrow, the very day after.

And that’s sad.

QB

Nothing else ever seems to hurt like the smile on your face, when it’s only in my memories.

Pictures snatched out the frame
Bitch I scratched out your name,
and your face,
What is it about you that I can’t erase?

Say something

Feels like I’m spiraling down again

And yet again there is but no one to catch the fall

And yet again I feel,

I feel the need to relive the moments

I wish I didnt want to at all

It’s sad to say I still care, I will always care

You were my first and I hoped only.