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So guess who woke up at 8:05 for their test at 8:30. MEMEMEOHPICKME


So i basically jumped and sprinted through the hallway toΒ  brush my teeth and wash my face. For the first time ever in poly, I went to school without showering omg smelly nim.Grabbed my cloths, laptop and bag. I knew I was gonna have a long day so I’d hate to be all sticky and shit so i brought a towel and my mini set of toiletries. hehe judge me all you want yall. So yeah I reached school around 8:40 and managed to get an awesome spot for the online test. Googled all the way πŸ˜‰ But google also 60/80. Nevertheless Im content. I dont even feel bad at all I mean I need my grades man.

So after the paper, I rushed to schools gym toilet and showered. HAHAHA well I felt fucking fab after the shower so yay. I have no idea why people are shocked when I told them about this. I mean, circumstances made me do it. I couldve just been another smelly ass who would have spent the whole day out without showering in the morning BUT NO OMG I CANT I JUST CANT. Hate the sticky unclean feeling of my skin. So yeah basically its the same as showering after a gym sesh just that this time I didnt gym XD

Ok so next up I had Bioent presentation.Presentation went ok I guess. All other groups had like stellar ppt slides so i thanksed all lords that we got to go first πŸ˜‰ Q&A was :0 it was like directed qns omg hahahha didnt expect theory qns at all lol. Thought they were gonna ask about the product but no. They asked about the module which I have never ever payed attention to. But hey managed to answer some qns.But there was this one qn which the lecturer asked that stumped all of us. It was actually a pretty basic qn but we were not really able to give a good answer. 😐

Next I had to finish up an assignment so i could only meet Siva at 4 instead of 3 like we planned. :< Anwyay we met at clem and took some bus to bukit timah and went to Al-Azhar and had Dum briyani πŸ˜‰ Neeeded to pee so badly and there were no restrooms NUUU. K we sat down and Siva ordered Dum briyani and some lemon fizzy thing for me and orange juice for herself. So her dum briyani came and so did the drinks. Lemon fizzy was NOT fizzy. Not even the slightest bit :<. So her briyani came and we were waiting for mine. It was like 10minutes and I was starting to wonder if they were gonna even bring mine. So Siva suggested I ask the person what our table ordered and guess what? We only ordered 1 briyani and the drinks :’) HAHA and then the real waiting started. After like 5 mins one of the waiters were nice to ask the guy to hurry and bring my food cause I had been waiting a long time. Then i finally got the food MMMMZ


Next I really felt like getting some cake so we went off in search of cafes that sold nice big chocolate cakes but there wasnt any 😦 Saw carpenters and cooks and also Nooks hahahah like finally. Entered carpenters and cooks and finally saw the tart everyone instagrams. It.was.tiny. No chocolate at C&C so we entered looked and left lol. So then we decided to go to Westmall coffeebean to have some cake. Somehow I agreed to walk all the way there even though my feet had like blisters.We walked for roughly 1hr 15mins? Remeber how I mentioned I needed to pee, ya well halfway through our journey I was dying. Like critical condition. So we really rushed all the way to west mall XD

Had a great time with Siva. Forever relieving our secondary school memories:’) Gossip session ok well not really gossip session. Talked about pretty much the same stuff we always talk about but hey it never gets old ❀ Β Had mudpie at coffee bean but it didnt taste like how Id like it to have tasted :< Oh well still had it. Siva had banana chocolate. So timecheck: 7:45. Got a call from my sis saying that fam was gonna have dinner at pastamania. WOHOOO but I was bloody full.

So Siva went off when my parents came. We went to pastamania and man oh man was it crowded! Like wtf too crowded. So we decided to take away pasta. Then an angel sent from above came to me and asked if I was looking for seats and he lead me to a really nice seat YAY so guess no take away. AWWYEAH Mum had marinara sis chicken sausage and dad tomyum seafood and I just had the apple mint. πŸ™‚

Ok uh. I think a bit too detailed uh the post HAHAHAHAH

Happy V day ❀

It’s not just for couples πŸ™‚ Spend it with the ones you love. I did. Wish I could’ve spent some time with Akila as well :/ Other than that today was fab.




Alot has happened. It is time to write about it.

So I shall.

1. I have a test tomorrow. Final test. 7 mofo chps. FATASS chps. All for MCQ. ugh

2. Final presentation for Bioent. A module I have dreaded taking

3. Its valentines day tmr and Im gonna spend it with zeevaaa yay

4. I was supposed to umpire my first match on saturday but i changed my mind.

5. I feel like Im filling all empty slots of my time with things to do.

6. Im so friggin tired right now cause I worked today.Bad move nim. Bad move.

7. I shall stop.

8. Toodles


So i was supposed to meet a friend today but he never showed up. He fell asleep :/ Sigh. I dont know why Im feeling so angry/pissed by this. I mean to him I was just meeting him after a study sesh. But what he doesnt know is that that study sesh was made so i could meet him.


Feel kinda worthless. Omg so drama sia but yea thats exactly what i feel now. Worthless. Waited the entire day for a msg to confirm the meet up but no.

Its ok.


We’re just friends anyway. I dont want anything more. AT ALL. I like the way it is. Nonchalent.

I’m afraid of feelings, commitment, pressure and all that. I cant and wont be able to deal with anything.

Anyway I’m not so mad now but boy I was flaming when i first received the msg. Hmmm. I have no idea what to feel right now.





I am so done. Done. Done. Doned. LOL

Presentaion went great. Well lecturers were apparently happy with our presentation.

But during Q&A i didnt really answer any qns 😦 well i asnwered prolly 2. But they were super easy though. My groupmates answered the rest πŸ™‚ They were awesome :’) So proud of us.

Anyway one final project. We’d have to prepare a poster for some science centre thingy.

Hopefully get B+ or A. Most prolly B+ uh.




Went to Clarke Quay with the family on CNY. Hehe impromptu plan to go out as a fam. We rarely go out uh btw.

So we decided to go to Clarke quay to just walk around and stroll. LIKE WHUT. Anyway once we reached we were all hungry so we decided to go have dinnnuh YAY at a nice restaurant called RAS. Its an Indian restaurant go figure. Why do Indians eat out at indian restaurants? Something I never quite understood why >: Maybe we just love our food a tad too much heheh ANYWAY so the waiter comes up to us and hands us the menu. He had the ladies the normal menu while he hands my dad the menu with a bonus page. hmm BOOZE. So I just thought Id give it a shot and order one of them. But of course I’d only order a cocktail cause it’s a ‘ladies’ drink πŸ˜‰ Mojito sounded pretty delicious actually. Mint leaves, sprite and rum. Mmmz. Dad actually went ahead and allowed me to order :’) YAYERZ. Mum and sis had Shirley temple. Sis is under some kind of skin medication and she’s afriad alcohol might cause some weird reaction so yeah she’s staying away from alcohol for a while. Food-wise, Hyderabadi briyani chicken and lamb, roomali roti, and chicken keema i think? we’d decided to keep it simple as we just ate before we left. I mean we were hungry but we were not VERY hungry. Get it? yeah. So food arrived and it was soo good. The briyani rice was cooked to perfection. Soft and fluffy omg so good. The chicken was soft and tender not dry AT ALL how the hell do they do that?! The chicken was perfection HECK even their raitta was amazeballz. Yeah. Finished our food and I found myself craving for something sweet. Yeah start spicy, end sweet vice versa πŸ˜‰ So yeah grabed a menu and the hot brownie sundae. IT WAS SO GOOD. Although i thought they were kinda stingy about the brownie. It was like 1/2 inch thick and like 5x5cm πŸ˜₯ but the icecream on top was kinda huge so I guess that made up for the ridiculously small brownie.

Next we decided to walk around a bit. LOW AND BEHOLD the famous turkish icecream that Id been seeing at Clarke quay for YEARS and i literally mean yearrsssss. Always wanted to try it. But dad would say NO cause we already had food and apparently I was at a phase where I’d eat food even if I’m extremely full. I’ve seen that ‘stall’ for 6 years although the cheeky vendor changed 😦 He was more engaging with his customers.The new vendor just kinda hands out the icecream. MEH. So i got chocolate. Duh. My undying love for chocolate. Mum got vanilla and dad got pistachio. $6 per cup of turkish icecream. NOT WORTH IT. Even after wanting that icecream to melt in my mouth for years,still NOT WORTH IT. ok.

Took train and reached BB. Sis didnt have the turkish ice cream so she thought she’d get herself Macs icecream. So i followed her and I dont know what came over me but i ordered a chocolate milkshake for myself hehehhehhe BUT WORST DECISION EVAH. 1. hot brownie sundae 2. turkish chocolate icecream 3.Macs chocolate milkshake. SIGH and i had like NO water at all other than that one glass at the restaurant.

So yeah I woke up the next day with what I call the early signs of a fever. Dry throat feelin weak and all dat ish. So yeah did i mention dad decided to head out to pulau ubin that day!? no? well yeah. So even though i knew a storm of bad fever was upon me, i still went ahead. I did tell my parents and sis that i was feelin unwell but they brushed it off as a joke ( i shall make a new post soon about that). So yeah we were a near clem when i felt really weak and held my dads hand. He thought it was really hot. LAWD JESUS ITS A FIRE. yeah it was burh- nin. So we decided to head back home. Basically i was bed ridden the whole day. All i had that day was one thosai at like 10am before headin out. I ate like 12 hours later after crawlin out of bed. Yeah BED RIDDEN. No fan. Just me my bolster, my trusty beary and my blanket.

Feel kinda bad that the plan was cancelled cause of me though.