I feel like i have nothing that keeps me going.
Nothing. Nothing worth going to school for.
Nothing.Nothing worth going for.
Not even friends.
Cause i dont really have anyone in my class that i can lean on.
Suddenly everyone feels like a stranger.
I swear the class was more alive during first week of school.
Well, to me that is.
Now everyone is further sectioned to their smaller cliques and im left cliqueless.
I cant be bothered.
I honestly dont give a fuck.
Which is why i usually keep to myself in class this sem.
Everything has changed.
Maybe they didnt change, maybe they are different from how i want them to be and thus seem “changed” to me.
Feel kinda leftout though.
Thats the last thing i need right now.
I hate feeling lonely.
Makes me feel like i have nothing.
Feeling really negative right now.
Nothing interests me.
I feel like i have nothing.
Feel like i have learnt nothing.
Decembers the month i reflect on myself.
Behaviour, changes, everything.
This december, i feel nothing.